Perhaps I could just...

Die.

Last Monday, I had a dream. I died, then I heaved up a breath and came back to life and I'm on the other side of the bed. During my death, I was somewhere in heaven and I think I talked to God or something. But anyway, I came back to life. And then I awoke.

Today, I wish I could do that. I wish I could just die for a moment then come back to life again.

I fear that I'll fail Calculus again, despite already mastering the formulas. I'm blaming Ronald for this. And I blame myself for listening. :|

I just wanna die soon...